Should I move to Colorado? Too many problems.?

O.k. so there have been so many crazy things happening in my life!!!! I moved out of my families apartment a few months ago and everything went down from there. I just want to die. I've made sooo many mistakes. College, family, friends, Should I move to Colorado where my family lives? I live in New York and I was wondering if there is ANYONE/ANYPLACE who could help me out? I had to go to public restrooms to get a semishower. I don't have any water in my apartment. Should I commit suicide? I almost took down 20 aspirin pills last night. i don't want anyone to know my situation. Should I go to my nearest church? Musicians don't make any money!!! The bible doesn't do **** for me.